open paranthesis: tenerife sea.
we’re breaking down ed sheeran today.
most perhaps know another song from multiply that celebrates love in a painting of light- photograph. amma would ask me to sing that song all the time. i wanna talk about the other song from multiply where ed sheeran pleads the line “lumiere over me, darling.” over and over the bridge- tenerife sea. imagine the trance i was put in when the Genius annotator informed 9th grade me that it meant “radiate your light over me.”
i know ed sheeran has the whole- he’s always at a christian wedding- kind of thing going on but hear me out. i also really got into ed sheeran around the point the smartest bi christian girl at school had just adopted me as her little gay boy.
“oh, my bad, you're pan, right?”
god, tanvi susan cherian, what would i have ever done without you?
she also basically taught me how to sing. i know everyone can sing and all that but the voice is a magical thing- it keeps track of who you're singing with, singing to, for, hell, even why it’s singing. she's the reason that sometimes- on a good day- when i’m singing at home or playing my guitar, birds start chirping along.
she's the reason when one of our indie, special musicians- usually dodie- would play the fourth chord of a major scale- which is usually a major chord- then play its minor (WHICH ISN'T TECHNICALLY IN THE SCALE), and then resolve it back to the root note, my heart still sits in my stomach.
tanvi and all her light. and me a-shine.
the little joy of being seen, and still kept. like a reason to stick around. god, we loved twenty one pilots, didn't we? from dodie to mental health to boys to tangents to tangents to philosophy to laughs taking hostage of several minutes- we built a whole ass bookshelf of a language. god tanvi, i love you.
i miss you all the time.
aside from hating time all the time, i’ve been well. the bookshelves never stop being built. and then the printing press and the mobile phone and all that too ofc.
but you know that.
i hope to see you soon?
p.s. you get the connection of light and being seen, right?